Saturday, September 11, 2010

The Last Temptation



When Martin Scorcese's "The Last Temptation of Christ" was released back in 1988, I remember there were a lot of Christians who protested the film, in particular for one controversial scene near the film's conclusion.

As Jesus (Willem Dafoe) hangs, dying on the cross, he has a daydream of sorts in which he is living as husband-and-wife with Mary Magdalene (Barbara Hershey), and the two are seen doing what human men and women do, including the act of procreation. Fundamentalists exaggerated the sexual content, condemned the film as pornographic and salacious, and even offered to buy the negative from Universal Studios so that they could burn it — before the film had opened. Scorcese later speculated that they objected to the idea of the film, rather than the film itself. After all, they hadn't seen it.

They missed the point of the film. Even many people who saw the film missed the point.

The last temptation of Christ was not hot ("Boxcar Bertha") Barbara Hershey. According to author Nikos Kazantzakis, Christ's last temptation was the temptation to live a normal life.

And that just blows my mind.

Imagine the Son of God, the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords actually wanting to be one of us. To live like we live, to do what we do, to be with us, to stay here with us.

Of course, we don't know that's what was going through Jesus' mind as he was hanging on the cross. In fact, it likely wasn't. I believe he had loftier things on his mind. And I believe he knew how much better life is in heaven and how much pain and misery and sorrow are part of this world. But Kazantzakis, who wrote the novel in 1960 (originally in Greek), poses a scenario that has caused people to ruminate the idea for half a century.

If I'm completely honest with myself, I've faced this same "last temptation" for almost that same length of time.

I've coveted, desired, pursued and am daily tempted to lead a "normal life". And in some ways I have attained it. I have a wife, kids, house, lawn, respectable job, proper associations, etc., etc. Many of them, things I once thought were unattainable for me, so I wanted them even more. There was a time, particularly in my younger years, that I craved a normal life.

Yes, we say we want to be "special", to be different, to be unique and unusual and stand out in the crowd. But do we really? Really? Don't we all want to fit in, to belong to some group, some tribe? Even if the tribe we choose is on the fringes of society, we're still trying to fit in, to be "normal" to the people who accept us and surround us.

I mean, so many people sport tattoos these days, that it's oftentimes unique NOT to have a tattoo. Heck, at 49 years of age, I'm thinking about getting a tattoo myself because the idea has become so acceptable.

And the desire for a "normal life" isn't limited to the way we look or the way we act. It shows up in the way we spend our time. It's in the decisions we make and the paths we choose to follow. In fact, the last temptation of Christ may be our greatest temptation.

What does God say about how to live our lives?

"Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirit's leading in every part of our lives." (Galatians 5:25)

"You have made known to me the paths of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence." (Acts 2:27-29)

"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." (Galatians 2:20)

"For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God." (Colossians 3:3)

"...I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received." (Ephesians 4:1)

"As a result, he does not live the rest of his earthly life for evil human desires, but rather for the will of God." (I Peter 4:2)

"Be holy, because I am holy." (I Peter 1:16, I Peter 1:15, Leviticus 11:44, Leviticus 11:45, Leviticus 19:12, Leviticus 20:26)

"Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord." (Hebrews 12:14)

"So why do you keep calling me 'Lord, Lord!' when you don't do what I say?" (Luke 6:46)


Now that doesn't sound like a normal life, does it?

Let's resist "the last temptation". Let's resist the temptation to lead a normal life.

Wish me luck as I lead the life God has in store for me.

Godspeed, as you make your way down the path he has set for you.

Monday, September 06, 2010

Thoughts on My Father Written at the Death of My Grandfather

Circa 1985

Don't waste away life waiting to be perfect.
Don't wait 'til you're good enough to let me know you.
Closing yourself off to keep me from seeing
Leaves me yearning and empty inside.
I want to know you and you to know me,
So when you are gone then I can find tears.

Matinee: Winter 1984

I live in a moment bright and yellow
Filled with Grace and wit and free from care
We faced a screen which for a time
Held all our thoughts at bay
And drenched us in immaculate streams
And left us receding, mesmerized.

But now we march out down the aisle
Our minds process the real again
And colors which were moments ago
Accomplices in our escape,
Now turn and fade in matter grey.
I flip from station to station in the car.
The ride back home goes slowly.